Cukuplah Allah bagiku

Assalamualaikum,

This blog has been abandoned for quite a while. I am running to do things! I am a wife, a proud ummi, and a PhD student. Research. Neuroscience. Is that can be accepted as an excuse? Yes, please accept that! Last few day, me and hubby have a chat and I was running my finger through the tablet, when I found pictures that I uploaded to the my blog. We were reminiscing every pictures, with a smile ear to ear. Only God knows how I wish I have the time to write again. Yes, after years, you can see how kurus you are at that time, how sweet my hubby then when he wrote something on the sand. Things like that. I want to keep that as memory. Hence, the existence of the blog til today. 

Life here is a bit tough. We both a student. Alhamdulillah, there is always  help from Allah.  

إِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا 

So, verily, with the hardship, there is relief.

Now, my sis in law Ita is here to take care of Hasif when we have to go to class/lab. There are time when we have to run to one bus stop to another to catch the bus. With the temperature -1 degree, and strong  wind, we runnn. There were time that we have to walk for about a mile, to catch the bus, to buy something. We have been tested with all type of tests. Fitnah, tiredness, fear, hunger, loss.

"Be sure We shall test you with something of fear and hunger, some loss in goods, lives, and the fruits of your toil. But give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere. Those who say, when afflicted with calamity, 'To Allah we belong, and to Him is our return.' They are those on whom descend blessings from their Lord, and mercy. They are the ones who receive guidance." 

(2:155-157) 

But one thing for sure, we become deeply in love with Allah, and each other for the sake of Allah. There are one time, that I keep my tears very long. Then when my husband put his hand around me, I just burst into tears..and cry non stop. Sometimes, I feel I cant hold it anymore. Everytime when I remember about that, I just say to myself

"Cukuplah Allah bagiku, cukuplah Allah bagiku, cukuplah Allah bagiku"

And I just ask Allah to wake me up and give me strength to talk to him every night. When everyone is sleeping. I just feel the ultimate content. I just mengadu kat Allah. Allah Maha Tahu. Allah Maha kaya.

Bila berfikir, memang cukup hanya Allah bagi kami. Tak perlu benda lain. Tak perlu pengiktirafan manusia. In the end of the day, ke akhirat kami akan kembali. Allah Maha Tahu, Allah Maha Adil. This day I just try to be a better muslim, mukmin, cuba untuk sebar benda baik. Harap Allah pandang usaha yang sangat atomic ni, dan berikan rahmat untuk ke syurga. Dah tak nak benda lain dah kat dunia ni. Study ke jadi emak ke, jadi isteri ke jadi anak ke, biar jadi yang terbaik untuk Allah pertimbangkan usaha kecik ni untuk masuk syugaNya. Sesungguhnya, syurga Allah itu mahal harganya.

Fight for Jannah!!